Is that a no?

You have taken a very 'full on' approach to your self diagnosis.
With no factual evidence at all.

The only thing convincing you is your interpretation of the feeling it gives you; and how you relate them feelings to the 'known' symptoms.

You do not know. Im NOT saying it isnt. But you do not know.

If losing your marriage etc.. isnt a the biggest rocket up someones arse then I dont know what is. Thats the difference; some people used it to really fight through with proper help and give it 100%, the others dont and simply us it as a 'reason' not to be reaching their potential.

If this is you fighting and giving it 100% then im lost for words. If it isnt worth fighting for.. what are we here for?