I haven't been posting much as I feel that I have a pretty good grasp on my life and situation. I still do have some ups and downs but my good days heavily outweigh the bad. I had a great weekend with my s13 and he played his first tournament of the year unfortunately losing in the championship game, my boy had an awesome weekend, so proud of him. The down part of the weekend was learning that STBXW ditched my d11 to a friends house to go out for the night, again not putting the kids first! This really disappointed me not for what she was doing but I could have brought my d11 with me if I knew that was going to happen.
For the first time in 25 years I didn't go shopping for my wife on her birthday, I did struggle with this but in the end I caved a little and gave my S17 and D11 money to go shopping to get something for her, I never mentioned the birthday at all to her.
On the home, I believe I have come up with a plan to keep the house on my own at least till the end of the school year and then sell it to hopefully stabilize my children especially my s17 as he is a senior in high school, very important year for him as he prepares for college. If I keep the house I have a buyer lined up for early summer next year by owner so I'm due to make out financially. Doing this would leave STBXF no money for a down payment to get her own place, not my concern!
I mentioned in a previous post about a woman I met from my s13 sports team, while we were at the hotel this past weekend our conversations became very flirtatious to the point she invited me to her room, as much as I wanted to I couldn't do it! All I kept saying was that I am still married and at the end of the day I feel that I would let someone down, not sure who maybe me, maybe my kids, God?? I don't know. In some ways if I did I wouldn't be any better than what my wife did to me. I do know that I don't regret any decisions I have made, I can live with myself!
I do have an awesome GAL planned for this weekend, I was offered a real cool off roading trip though work and then spend the rest of the weekend fishing with my brother. As much as I want my kids with me I need to have a me only weekend, my kids want me to have this as they say I deserve it! Love my kids! That's all, nothing too crazy, still have 4 months to go!
