To be honest sometimes I get jealous from others who have a fight or a spew at least you can tell that you matter to fight with at least the lbs tried to contact the family even with a twisted mind of blaming them for his misery. At least he keeps temp checking. This gives you the determination to fight back and decide if this life is worth it.
In my case I feel things are cold. He never initiate a msg . No calls since year back. Nothing ... no spewing no blaming ... only first couple of months . now he blames himself only and know it is his faults... but so far as of on a different planets... does not blame anyone but him on his faults but does nothing about it. He doesnot say he has another life still immersed in work according to him... I wonder what does that mean... he says he loves the kids and he has direct numbers he can msg them... do what stops him from doing that... they are always responsive... they never blamed him and always responded to his msg...they never asked why he doesnot see them or contact...
I wonder how does he justify this in his mind... just some thoughts...
M 45 H 45 D1 12 D2 9 BD 04/14 Living two different state Not officially separated
