Any Advice?

[marina7]

GW,
We know is hard to detach,GAL trust me but again you are now in a whole different world, my W just told me OW is not me OW can't never be me, our W will talk to us like we are there bf I know i know is freaking crazy, when I first got here I was a total mess I kept reading I even question it like 180.hmmmm detach like how am I going win W back by doing that but one day I realize let me try it and I am seeing oh wow, it's working. Read my stitch Sunday W came and drop S8 and D9 and was seeing my changes W talk I just listen and if W ask a question I reply with one word. It's hard trust me but I can see W is soft spoken now W is making eye contact,rubbed my hand I kept my cool. I know she cake eating but I stood my ground. As soon i walk in I gave kids big hug and kiss and walk away for 20min and cried because I still love my W and for the first time I haven't said ILY in 5 weeks or hug or anything.

Unfortunately we are in high school again, in earlier stitch I told you we now in there world we have to play the hard to get spouse, and play there game but we are one step ahead. My MLC/WAW/PTSD W was a monster I never thought I will ever see the person I knew 10yrs ago but Sunday I seen how she was trying to see everything I text.

Is crazy but this forum is what keeping us going you would have your days just never let her see you.

Example W didn't want me to get sleeve tatoos because W said she didn't like them and hated the fact it made me more attractive Guess what I did yelp I got my tattoo I wanted and I don't have to ask permission because am single now. So just tell yourself this is a free pass for you to do everything you wanted to do before you got married.

Again we are family here is a horrible pain it feels like life not worth it or why would this happen, am going tell you what my Therapist said this was going happen with you or weather she was married to someone else this was destiny you can't change God plan we just gotta go with the flow. So focus on you always first because our kids need us because at this moment we are the only thing they have in stability.

Take it a day at a time, is a process is ok to sometimes cry,scream on your time even punch go do boxing that's a great releaver for me. And eventually when you start seeing everything we been telling you is true then your tears become laughter am telling you I say am in a twilight zone and there's day feels like a circus but hey we can't change it we gotta keep going.