I understand not wanting to file but what is best for you?
I understand wanting to confide in family but you can't expect others to understand. It's incomprehensible to most. One of my family tried to give unhelpful advice and I cut them off and told them I just want them to listen.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving