Quick re-cap: Came here to save my M Never thought really to have any hope Suspected OM, wife lies to have seen "a couple of times" Reality: they spent every weekend together when D is with me I went on spinning and really convincing myself I'm better off Told stupid things to my XW (better without her etc), regretting it now Destroyed the chances of a re-united family Logically detached and accepted the situation, emotionally not even close Hopefully someday I have a fulfilling life
So, today was a low-day for me. Free from work, very tired, been just sleeping the entire day waking up every hour or so. This f#cked up sleep is just getting the better of me. Got up from bed at 4pm, lol. Been so emotional today that I can't even understand. Now I just read some threads where their XW has had a baby with OM and man did that feel horrible. Panic attack made a comeback.
Well, day by day. Hoping for a better future Missing my kids so much. Feel bad about being a bit angry towards D this morning when I took her to school. I'm just so tired. She is very temperamental at mornings and she decided to lie to me. I raised my voice a bit saying that it isn't acceptable. I just want to sleep well again.
In my thirties, BDd 2017, divorced 2 young kids new relationship
