So today I moved forward with a lawyer a friend help me find, this lawyer is divorce too and exh was formal military lawyer took my case and working on payments with me. Lawyer stated that w is going through a bad case of PTSD and unfortunately she see this alot where they don't think of there surrounding. So lawyer sending W letter of intent that all I want is to keep kids together weather 1 week on and 1 week off. So praying W agrees if not then we be going to court.
Update, I honestly thought W was going come to some sense I was fulling myself especially after seeing son yesterday after dropping D9 and s8 he looks tired exhausted I hug s9 and told him hang in am bringing you home he said ok mommy.
But I also seen W different, I have gone dark going on 5 weeks not texting or calling just focusing on D9 and S8 and healing from surgery. But this weekend I went out with a friend I met for drinks Friday and Saturday a party and yesterday with my brst friend to movie. W seen me friday when picking up s8 and d9 I was dress nice W commented I must be dating I ignored and gave all kids kiss and walk aways. Then as I was walking away W tells s9 oh your mom has a new GF I said please don't tell him that and walk away. So yesterday while dropping d9 and s8 W had MIL and FIL W said they wanted to see you so I greeted them. As I was walking back I got a message from friend I met up for drinks text, had a great weekend W was over my shoulder and seen it W said wow your dating I replied there's nothing to talk about when I wanted to talk you didn't so I gave myself closure W replied we should meet for coffee and talk I replied there's nothing to talk about when I try to explain it's not a good idea to separate kids you didn't care W again focus on herself and brings up my EA 3yrs ago I said we both did wrong I have apologized for that there's nothing more you moved on with OW W confirm they are together I laugh and said of course that's why you left.. I know I should have not fed to her but it's hard not to speak up. So I said again ok there is my closure. W said look at me, look me as I was walking away W with tears coming down I love you so much you just don't know how much I still do you don't think this is hard for me I watch Netflix I look over in my bed I picture you there.🤔 I look for you hold me. 🤔 I just listen I wanted to yell and say yeah right OW lives with you. But I didn't a big pause I know W was expecting me to say I love you.. but I didn't I just stared I said before I go in remember everything in this world could be fix don't let your pride get in the way. Or for it to be to late. W shook her head like she understood. Ok then I went in. I lock myself in bathroom in a ball and cried my eyes out. Because I know she just cake eating.
I then had dinner with S8 and D9 and they said ow said she was going pull there ear if they didn't listen I am in rage called W and said I really dont care what you do with your life but I swear if she touches my kids I swear i will destroy her and you. Btw OW work's with her. W calmly said I will handle that. I replied you know me very well and W replied I know I will handle OW. I hung up.
I don't understand why W or H let's them do thinks also if W said I need to find myself why attach to another relationship smh so many why's but no answers MLC,WAW they simply can't make sense but I guess I'll keep focusing on Me and S9,D9 and S8 and honestly. And will keep ya posted once lawyer sends her letter first to see if she agree.
All input are welcome Please. I hope my Dbing will peace us back slowly.
Me 39 W 37 together almost 10yrs BD ILYBNIL May Move out June S9,D9 and S8
At BD Lesbian marriage Me39,W36 S9,D9,S8 adopted all three Together almost 10yrs Bomb Drop - April 2017 W movedout - May,2017 OW June,2017 Currently 2018 Me40, W38 S10,D10,S9
