Leah, part 5

[leahsue]

OK, I just had a brand new thought, and I'd like some feedback, 2x4s, because I'm pretty sure I need them right now.

One of the things I've been hung up about is this- when H was telling me about OW (vacation), and I said, well, is she someone you could see yourself really loving and marrying???..... he said ...... ATTENTION- "No, b/c she has young kids and I don't want to raise any more kids."

OK People, I ALREADY KNOW, there are so many things wrong with that statement.
And that's one of the reasons I won't even think about being with him again, if that's the best he's got *(And there are more but they are lamer than that.)

BUT, here's my point...... today I was in the shower thinking about some men I've met since BD, (and I'm not going to lie about this-one of them came from this forum but disappeared, is very near my zip code, and for a while I kept up with him on another forum......) BUT, I don't think I would have actually tried to meet him IRL, although he's probably less than 100 miles away from me- and on the other forum, you can post pictures, so I'm telling you, he is a HOT DOLL! but, I'm much older than he is, he would not be interested in me,has YOUNG KIDS etc..... but today it dawned on me, but what if he was? Would you resist? Would you meet him? Aren't you giving yourself the same reasons to not go there? Is that really so different from what H is doing? finding himself attracted to someone who is right there, as opposed to the other person 1000 miles away? I'm going out on a limb here and say- I probably would have at least gone to meet him.

So does that make ME a bad person?
Does that make H a bad person?

Or is that two very alive people trying to find their way home, to the RIGHT HOME FOR THEM?

As 25 says, I'M ASKING!

BTW, 25, I have thought about you so many times this weekend. And I hope you are doing exactly as I pictured..... in a classy, hota$$ dress, dancing the night away with all the nephews, (and maybe possibly a new gentleman caller?) No matter what, I hope you are having "the time of your life." I could not ask for more.

Good night, my good friends. Hopefully some of you will show back up this week. It seems most responders disappear on the weekends, but then show back up during work week.

Hmmmmm..... that's interesting if I were a business owner, which I have given up, but JUST SAYIN!......... I'd be checkin my work force to be sure they were WORKING, not just DBing all day. LOL.