Have been keeping my distance from w. Lost my temper a few days back with her told her I wasn't going to help or even try to explain to the kids what she was doing it was all on her. i startyto tell her it's one thing for her to be rude to me then actually stopped mid sentence. Looked at her and said actually no there is no time when either of us have the right to be rude to each other. We are supposed to be here for the kids not the other way around.
W has been regular on the phone to the kids since the exchange and has asked to be included on a family outing.
I have talked and only saw her once in 4 days she smiled at me then started to break down said she needed time to fix herself I again lost patience and said not at the expense of me or the kids. I left before I said anything else. The kids have mentioned she does ask Them how I'm doing and she has them pass messages like have a good night or good day.
I know she is going through a lot but I find when I am around her my temper is short.
I love this lady and I'm getting sick of not being able to tell her or show her. She still has no social life to speak of and says on numerous occasions she wants to be back home then goes back to the I need to be alone to fix myself line.
Tomorrow should be interesting invited to a big birthday party that wife is invited to also. Received text from her tonight asking if I was going when I didn't respond she texted again saying she was looking forward to seeing me. I texted back the yes I would be there.
I think a early morning ride on the back roads will get my mind right for the afternoon.
