I knew my wife and I were too different and I married her anyway. Two months later I regretted it. Now it's been a year and we both can't stand each other. We're both people of faith and believe in staying in it but I feel so stuck. It's so miserable. I'm so upset with myself because I knew it and did it anyway. When we were dating we broke up because of this but then got back together, then things were so very good we decided to get married. We had dated 4 years. I was cautious but at 48 I'm at a point in my life that if you find someone half decent you either seal the deal or possibly be alone forever. She was patient for 3 years but then pushed me in making a decision of either making it permanent or getting on with our lives elsewhere. So there, we married and now one year later we both hate each other. So ridiculous I wish I had listened to myself. My fault I know. So embarrassing. I don't know what to do. It's like we're bad roommates with no love and passion and sex. When we're home together I get up and go to the bathroom and sit there with the door closed just to get away from her. Everything is so awkward. I've never been with someone where it's like this. I know I have a lot of issues and I'm at fault a lot here but this is nothing I've ever experienced before. My wife is extreme OCD. I knew that going in but we never lived together till married and being with this atmosphere is hard. Dating was nothing like living with daily. Everything I do is upsetting to her. We can't even sleep in the same room. I have anxiety issues. Nothing extreme in my opinion but if I figit, pop a knuckle or shake my leg she leaves the room to avoid a fight. We can't eat in the same room because if my fork taps the plate she freaks out. I'm not saying I'm a quiet and calm person but geez no one has ever had a problem with me before. She's made me more aware and I try to not shake a leg or anything when we're around each other but it's gotten to a point where she's on a witch hunt looking for anything I do to gripe about. So it's come down to this..... married a year and when I used to see her I would Think "there's my sweetheart I can't wait to hold her hand". Now I see her and I'm repulsed and think "God get me outta here ". I get blamed for everything and if she's annoyed or having a bad day it's because of me and not being supportive of her OCD and issues she deals with. Is this the rest of my life???? If we split up I'd lose several hundred thousand dollars right off the bat because all our stuff is mingled together. I'm too old to start over again. Seriously this is embarrassing because I knew it and did t anyway. What to do.......
