Still here. Still not detached...

[Chris73]

Detachment practice today. Taking S8 to the beach today to go bodyboarding. D5 does not want to go and would prefer to spend the day with my mom. I'm struggling with the guilt of not spending the day with both of them. But I'm realizing that this guilt is really a distraction from the real problem which is that I'm worried about what my W would say/think about this. I know that it doesn't matter, and frankly it should have never mattered even when we were happily married. But it always did. Another symptom of nice guy syndrome, worrying about what everyone else thinks and not wanting to make anyone mad. Needless to say I haven't changed my plans and D5 is excited to hang with grandma today!