Hello Treasur. I'm so happy to read your latest update. It sounds as if meeting Citygrl allowed for a reality check and gave you the confidence to leave the stage of healing that you've been in behind you.
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I accept that I am choosing to create my own kind of crazy cognitive dissonance where an H who loves me is as real as an anti-H who is indifferent (at best) to my existence. I know that's a bit weird so I don't tell many people but decide that if that's what I need to think to live with what's happened to me, that's fine.
I don't think that's weird at all. What happened to you is simply not as straight forward as other relationships ending. It was quick and sudden and there was mental illness involved. Personally, I believe your "crazy cognitive dissonance" is the truth and the most realistic explanation. In other words, I don't think it's crazy at all.
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I accept that my MLC H has destroyed his 50% of the last 20 years and 100% of a shared future, but I refuse to allow him to take my 50% or to shape my 100% of my future.
This is a fantastic way to put it.
Treasur, I just want you to know that reading your story and how you've been processing it (including the highs and the lows) has helped me make sense of my own story.
This post is particularly inspiring to me, and I hope - wherever you go - I'll still be able to read your stories. Maybe you'll just move over to the MLC forum here?
