Kaizen with the samurai sword (as opposed to the 2x4)! I'm giving up on trying to quote and respond properly, since I mess it up.
Re: working on my self-control. Yes you are absolutely right. The incidents are making the posts because I know I'm struggling with not defending myself, and not getting riled up by her cuts. I used to be able to judge her mood by my jokes. If she smiled, she was in a good mood. If she got upset, I knew she wasn't happy with me. I just need to not joke about anything to do with her, you are right.
Re: DB'ing. I feel like I'm dealing with MLC and in the LRT. In the LRT part of the book, the instructions are very simple, and I have been following them. Most of it is about what not to do. what you are to do is GAL. BUT I do think that maybe I need to try to DO something else. She would complain about me not doing things around the house, so I will do more of those things. I have been cleaning more often. And now when I do things with the kids, I just do them and don't bother with filling her in. My sights are on painting some walls, since that is just about the only handy thing I know how to do.
I did not have any goals. I have a hard time coming up with any, but I will make a goal of having her stat a conversation with me that isn't for the purpose of information. I know this is a blah goal, but she has been perfectly capable of living in the same house and not saying a word to me.
M: 41 W: 41 Married 2003 2 boys 9 & 6 Bomb Dropped May 2017