Hmm, so I've just finished my year end and instead of waiting until January to start working on my accounts, I've made a start now
I have some of STBXH's old invoices on my laptop (I used to help him with sorting his accounts). And out of curiosity I looked through some old phone bills. They were about £30/£40 per month usually.
Except the month I now know he had the affair with the 20 something year old (back in 2012). His phone bill for that month? £110.
Weird thing, I don't feel anything. Nothing at all.
I'm going to be working for the company he's done a lot of work for/with soon. Just a short term contract of a month and a bit.
I was talking to someone in the company today about preparations and arrangements for the job (obviously she knows what happened...well, not the story from my side, but you know, as much as is public) and I could **feel** the kindness coming down the phone from her. It was like she almost felt sorry for me.
I was very appreciative of her kindness, but afterwards, in my head, I was like, nah...I'm the one that's the lucky one in this scenario. Seriously.
That's how I'm feeling at the moment.
The OW? He's such a coward, such an underdeveloped teenager of a man. A man who can't deal with being an adult, who can't talk about any of the difficult emotions/situations that crop up in life.
And guess what? It's not just him, nobody in his family talk about difficult situations and emotions, so he's never seen anyone do that as he's been growing up and he's never learnt to as an adult.
And STBXH reacted exactly the same way I've seen his father react in his relationship with STBXH's mother.
STBXH always ran away from any of the things I brought up (and trust me, I was bringing them up as he was starting to go off the rails, 6 years before I left. He just either stonewalled me, or blanked me, repeatedly).
Well, she's totally welcome to him. I seriously deserve a lot better than being treated like that.
