You don't owe anyone an apology, least of all us.

I don't think I could have put up with your H for as long as you have.

Peace.

Me: 44
H: 44
Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10
Together/Married: 22 years
H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16
H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16