Lost on how to save my marriage! 2

[joejoe1]

J9,

He still in the picture. She talks to him all the time. She tries her hardest to hide it. I have mostly stop snooping. I check the house phone yesterday, but I'm done doing that.

I think it's better for her to be at the home. She can see me getting better and happy. I can also monitor my impact.

Yesterday I didn't get home to almost 9 oclock. I went on a hike with Meetup.com. It was a 2 hour hike around 4 miles. When I get home, I give her, her space, I say hi and got about my business. I don't badger her or follow her around. I sleep at night. This morning was the first morning in a while where I had bad thoughts. 20 mins before I woke up I start having crazy thoughts. I really think it was the devil attacking me. I got on my knees and prayed.

Tonight, I have a New Comers brief at church. I also have stones coming, because I building an outdoor fire pit in the back yard. It's something the wife wanted, but I got really intrigue and wanted to see if I can do it.