Not sure if I should regret this action or not. But after the poem to OM and trying to clean out the house incident. I told W that due to her actions, she was officially done with her and she was nothing to me. Well aware that was harsh and some might say that drove her further to OM. But at that point this woman had disrespected me at every turn. And it seemed that OM or whatever other man she is dealing with already had her. The fear of her running to another man wasn't there, because at that point she was already messing around.
She mentioned that I said a lot of stuff to her, which she was clearly bothered by. But at this point, I don't care about her feelings. Every time I show an ounce of weakness and concern for W, I get kicked in the teeth. My only concern is S13 and myself, because clearly she is stuck in this fantasy where bills and financial obligations mean nothing. Where I am left to decide on what to do with this home and everything in it. So I probably shouldn't have said what I said to W.
But it was true and at the end of the day, I probably needed to say that in order to move on with my life. Right now, I need to come up with a brand new plan for my future without W. And that's going to be partially determined on what I do with this house. I know that we are not supposed to make decision while in an emotional state. But I really don't have time at this point for things to settle down. I meet with this lawyer tomorrow and will likely go ahead and file for divorce. Once lawyers get involved, then W will have no choice bu t to handle business.
