You know, when I found out about the A, I just prayed it would end and even if it wasn't us, it would be someone else who wasn't knowingly screwing a married man with a baby on the way so I didn't have to have these feelings. It was the one respite I wanted to get from the divorce. I accepted we would not be a family and we were not good for each other, but I prayed he would get rid of her and find a nice woman and she wouldn't be tarnished with horrible immoral doings. Instead they get married and have been married longer than we were. I hate it to bits. It hasn't bothered me this much in a long time. I don't know why it's coming up. I think it's back to the sheer "Unfairness". Now I wish atleast I could have had the opportunity to be in a committed relationship and that isn't even happening. I am leaving for IC soon and I think we have to figure this out because it's bringing me down.
About the Asian chicks? What's up with that? ExNG had a serious thing for Asian chicks. First, he had a crush on his sushi chef. He was open about it. He showed me a picture and I know this horrible, but she was NOT ATTRACTIVE. Then guess who he has waiting in the wings? Another Asian chick, that's the one he has been with ever since. And from confirmed sources, that is her allure. That is about it. She is more attractive, but he thinks she is the hottest thing.
Total TMI, but FF and I used to joke about a threesome. We set down ground rules and mine was "No Asians!!!" It was really just a game we played when we went out. BTW, 2 of my bestest friends are Asians, I have nothing against them. One is even setting me up with a friend..... we shall see how that goes.
In other news, my last class has begun and I go back to work on Thursday. I don't know how ready I am for that. Ready, but not ready. And tomorrow D9 officially becomes D10!!!D10, ex and I are going out for her traditional birthday dinner with just the 3 of us. I keep waiting for the year he asks to bring HER, but I think he knows better,
