Oldtimer 4 years and counting

[Citygrl]

Thank you both for weighing in. I really needed to bounce those feelings off. Today I am feeling creeping doubt about filing in court. Like OwnIt bills are paid, no questions asked. Now, I am going into the unknown with more costly legal bills. I keep telling myself that it is just to get the financial disclosure from him but that he will freak out and turn ugly when he sees my financial requests.

Although lawyers all say it would be good to get half, I had a new imaginary conversation in my head. Basically, when he will inevitably tell me I am asking too much, I willl turn to him and ask, "How much does it cost to start over?"

He forgets that I relocated and gave up my family, friends, and career to move here (in the middle of nowhere and very isolated) and start a new life. He is just living more of his status quo with a successful business (until it isn't when disclosure comes into play). He makes me so mad. Jerk. D#%k.