Hang in there. You do sound very stressed and have a lot going on. Know what it is like to have visitors and wanting everything to be just so.

Mainly, I think you are sound like you are having a crisis of confidence! Not sure why. You come off as being so intelligent and kind and you got in there and solved your daughter's college issue and God knows how many other things you have navigated yourself through.

Go back to that young girl who was in law school, pregnant, and looking for a job. She sounds fearless and awesome. Remind yourself that that is you. That is still you. Get back your fearlessness and empower yourself to put on your "business" hat in "everything divorce". That doesn't mean laying down and rolling over to husband. That means getting what you want and if you have to be nice and stroke his ego, who cares. You know what the end game is. You don't have to be deceitful you just have to play the game and beat him at it. The judges have seen it all and they will see through his games. You can play the game and not lose your integrity.

Sorry to rant. Your H makes me mad and I know you are strong and deserve so much more than you are getting in this situation. You ARE smart. Trust yourself.


Me-54 H-49
T-1. M-7
BD 6/13 ILYBN I threw him out
OW - 3/13
OW2 on and off Overlap w/Ow1and OW3
OW3 - 8/17
H filed 1/17