Ah Treasur, this would be hard. I NEVER get anything like this. You keep saying that he left without telling you why. That may be true, but most never get even this much.
Sorry to say, but while heart-felt, there is MLC script here big time. The first that jumps out at me is saying that going back seems too difficult and that wiping the slate clean seems easier. The second is that he seems to be one of those that thinks he needs the divorce in order to move past this emptiness inside him. At least he recognizes that it could be running away and may not solve the problems.
You know, and everyone here knows, that once he gets that divorce he will feel free for 6 months or so and then his world will truly crash down on him with the enormity of what he has done. He has to walk those steps though. You can't stop him. You can't save him from the pain.
I would not respond. It seems this has been hard on him and he wants to be honorable. Give him a break from the texting and talking and let him put through his agreement to the solicitor. Respond in kind. Let him take this next step that he thinks he needs.
Remember with love and kindness the man who is at least present enough to communicate these things and to recognize that it may not be the answer and that he feels a desire to meet with you again.
This really does explain why this has been so hard on you. There is clearly a decent person in there somewhere. As hard as it is, let him figure out that getting rid of you was not the answer. You know that you get to decide when he leaves your heart, not him.
