25yearsMLC 10 Years Later I FILE D part 6

[25yearsmlc]

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Own, keep at it with me. I'm not handily rejecting your advice but I am mightily resisting it at the minute.

I hate the anger I feel. It's not motivation to me - I wish it could be the call to action some told me about in the Divorce Care group (I highly recommend those groups, btw. Very helpful and at least in my group, we are becoming friends).

I find it sickening and I think if I know h at all, he does too. Not sure how Schmoopie alleviates that (well I can imagine) but at some point it must be tiring to be with someone who "hates" their x.

Or maybe he does his goofy Narkles the Clown act and is SO HAPPY that he avoids thinking of the unpleasantness...

I'm guessing that he does both. He holds up the act as best he can, and then blurts out weird crap or vents to someone, b/c this is not what he was planning.

He had to "retire" (hide his work) ALL because of my greed!! And laziness!!

And turning the kids against him!! So, I have to find some way to approach him OR let the L's do it.

The Senior partner sounded genuinely angry at my h. I wasn't furious at the time, just sad. So my L was not reflecting back to me what he was getting from me, it was sort of strange.

Sort of good, b/c I want them to "be on my side" and I admit a part of me likes hearing how much h's lawyer dislikes h.

But I'm struck by the indiscreet way they communicate.

Alright time for meditation and bed. Thanks for taking the time, Own.

I'm on the east coast not sure where you are. Hope we meet and have margaritas some day. We can start a group of Doctor's 1st wives/kids

((( )))