New to the journey and thank you.

[Kylo]

I had a wedding to attend Saturday. I had asked W a month ago if she wanted to go (since we were both invited and I needed to RSVP). She said no. I had to attend, so I RSVP'd 1. About a week ago, W sends me a calendar invite to notify me of her going out with her friend this Saturday. I RSVP "no", because of the wedding. Previously when I RSVP "no" to these requests, she knows it means I can't do it.

Well I tell her I'll be leaving at 4 on Saturday and she gets uppity about her plans, I tell her I sent back the RSVP and she seems to believe me.

I go to the wedding, not sure how I will feel about it. Luckily, I think it is beautiful and blessed. I'm glad I wasn't bitter. I was a little bummed/nostalgic for all the young people in the wedding. I remember that time when you had all your friends around and they were available.

A guy I know was at the wedding and his W recently said she wanted a D, so I asked him all about his sitch. nothing to learn there, but the guy already has three women interested in him! Jeez, and I'll be diplomatic and just say I'm shocked.

So at the wedding, I think I'm doing pretty well for an introvert (until I can get some drinks in me) solo at a wedding where I'm not sure if I will know anyone. I help the guy staring down D with his sitch and as selfish as he is, he really appreciates it. I'm making people laugh left and right, getting compliments on my attire, but then, and this is embarrassing, I take a pic with my friends. In the pic, they look just like I think they look. I, however, look nothing like what I see in the mirror. I'm a few drinks in and I start wondering about my prospects if the D goes through. I decide to ghost even before the play Shout. I told everyone that is the only song I dance to, so people were looking forward to it like it would be a big moment. Ha! So a good night, but a bad ending.