Just a quick update while I have a few alone minutes.

H's trip is ongoing. He got here 8 days ago. He was due to fly out tonight, but decided (with no input from me except to ask if I was OK with it) to cancel his return to NJ and ride out this hurricane with me. He has worked all week on the house, building things, re-modeling things, and most recently, moving all patio furniture inside, getting generator prepared, etc. (Although we are probably only looking at some strong wind tomorrow. I'm earnestly praying for all our DB people in FL!)

As far as my feelings, I have found myself in a whole new range of emotions. Things I was told might happen to LBS, but never thought I would feel. I've been honest with him about my struggle, so I'm probably not fully DB'ing right now. But I've also said to him as recently as last night, that I will never live my life with ANYONE without full transparency. Your secrets will kill you.

So I'm not sure where we are right now. I have the long-standing appointment still set with attorney this coming Wednesday, and I'm not sure what I will do.

I feel today, that I am like the people right now in Naples, FL. In the midst of the calm eye of the storm, but looking for more wind and rain coming shortly.

Prayers and karma to everyone out there in the path of the storms, both literally and figuratively.

M-60 H-51
M-14 years
BD 12/26/16
S 1/1/17

"First the pain, then the rising."
Glennon Doyle Melton