LRT is my 180

[Btrow]

Started getting that knotty feeling in my gut again. Ugh. I'm doing fairly well but I guess I'm not detached quite enough yet?
This is really hard at times. Here I thought I was doing pretty well.

That's why it's called a roller coaster ride. You are only 2-3 months in, and those hard times will come back occasionally for several more months, I'm afraid.

I think the information regarding the future holiday got you down. Any sort of information from your W's sandbox can do that to you. I'm 10 months in, and still have sad moments from time to time. Especially when the kids mention what's going on at my XW's place. At least I can go weeks without feeling down now, so eventually it wears off.