Count on ups and downs (IV)

[WillDo]

I am reading Gordie. I really don't want to move out buf as I eminded myself reading there resistance will push her. She is controlling everything. I fill like a nanny. She told me her dates when she is working and asked me to cover. But again asked a out my room hunt. I am looking for a place close by but struggling with the idea. Especially after all I have done. That os where I see the Nice Guy Sendrom. I have been nice but again disn't get respect. For 5 weeks in US slept at 11 woke up at 4 to handle my work, the kids and her work. We were there during vacation as part of her work.