WOW! T2 you scare me, LMAO. And where is the woman I use to know who I had to hit with a 2x4?! You have come a long way too!
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I remember how I use to pray that he'd come back, and while praying that he would. I'd have these nagging thoughts about what I was really losing. I often thought about the narcissist he'd become, and admitted to myself time and time again, that he wasn't such a prize and wondered why having him back in my life could possibly be so important to me.
I would ask myself, why would I want this selfish, self absorbed man back in my life. Why should/do I miss a man that shared only a small part of himself and his life with me?
I have asked myself this many times lately; why do I still hang on to the thread of hope that someday this "man" will come through this a better person. But, in my case, I will not be the one to reap the benefits! By the time my "slow" H makes it through this, will I even care? Or will I be the one he turns to? Or will someone else be the benefactor? I guess it would be nice to be friends, but I don't think we will be "allowed" to be friends.
You are one of the lucky ones! You both came through this and are better people, changing in ways that will bring you both the happiness you deserve. And the new knowledge that will help you move through the rest of your lives together; as partners!
I'm SO glad you both "get it"! I'm so happy you two have this chance to build a better R and reap the rewards!
