Found two affordable lawyers. But I guess the issue I am having is whether or not I should be the one to initiate BD. I seriously believe that I ready to leave this separation limbo and move on with my life. But on the other hand, I don't want to feel as if I simply gave up on my MR. Guess that might just be my fix it mentality. But my W continues to cross boundaries with disregard or shame.
Talked with my neighbor yesterday who told me it took him and his ex 3 years to finally get divorce from when they initially got it started. Don't think we'll have that type of craziness, but it might not be the quick 90 days these lawyers are promising. Maybe I am just stalling the inevitable by making excuses. When it seems that I am ready to be full steam ahead, I suddenly become indecisive.
Crazy part is that I know things in my life won't improve for the MR or afterwards if I don't go and file. Definitely could use some advice, especially from TxHubby in this regards.
