LRT is my 180

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J9, we are similar in our thinking here, I believe.

Ds have told me she has dated, 2 guys at the very least.
My thinking is I'm just focusing on bettering me right now, and preparing my thoughts, attitudes, and words in case she shows up here one day. I will be a better person at that time, and she will have to return a better person (or start working on such immediately) or I won't be interested. If she files in the meantime I will be hurt, but it doesn't really change things. For all intents and purposes I don't have a wife right now anyway. I might get fed up and file at some point, IDK. I've nearly reached that point a few times already but haven't crossed the line. Why? IDK for sure why.