LRT is my 180

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I'm in a sort of cynical phase, I think. My BS meter has been re-calibrated and is in full effect. She's now in a 'show me' place in my heart/mind. Hoping I can detect all necessary BS and not get fooled until I see some true signs of turning.

I know I might be getting waaay ahead of myself. It could be a long time before she darkens my door. And true remorse could be much further out. That said, I heard a car pull up last night and butterflies went crazy in my stomach. Not in a romantic way, but in an "I'm not fully prepared for this" way.
If it was her, I would have struggled to be 4C.