Does it make sense that as crazy as I was about her, I'm really not feeling it right now? I'm operating under the assumption that my love for her will get reignited if DBing goes well.
Not crazy at all. I followed the program and detached so well that the thought of getting back together with a woman that would cheat on me no longer had any appeal. I had too many plans for a great future without her. I went from clingy, crying, begging pathetic guy to confident, happy, moving on guy and that snapped her out of it completely. Even so I had realized what kind of woman I had on my hands and had determined I could do much better. We ended up staying together but she almost lost me for good. I will no longer EVER for ONE SECOND put up with a partner that does not love, honor, and cherish me. I give that to them so if they don't return it, or even commit the smallest infraction of cheating and I'm gone for good.
I'm feeling good about where you are. Stick to your guns. You're doing well.
