Picking up Her MESS

[marina7]

Hello 25yearsmlc

My W was a very Loving W and Mom couldn't have ask for better women since her Breakdown or MLC for sure depress W confirmed.

I in 2013 had a EA I am not sure why I did it it happen and not sure how when W confronted me I didn't deny it and was ready to leave my W and kids I felt in love lol but driving one-day it hit me like a slap in my face what was I doing how can I just hurt her that way or my kids. I remember I felt unworthy for hurting her I realized it I went home and W greeted me hug me I cried and said am so sorry and we started piecing ourselves and when I said to W am sorry she'll say I know. Now I know how it hurts but never had a PA as W is I feel EA and PA are two different things W broke something I feel unworthy not pretty enough ect.

Our kids are adopted all three our first s9 is not related to D9 and S8 they are brother and sisters by law I feel blood doesn't make you family.

I myself had spine surgery it was 6hrs long of surgery still recovering haven't work in 8 months since work injury now am healing and couple more surgeries to go.

Now can I ask some questions.
Why do MLC spouses look for new relationships if they can't even handle there own at home or there kids. But can have an affair or ow is mind blowing. I try so hard to understand how can they just walk away and throw everything away.