I have been livng all of these things as well, it is so empowering to read that someone else was feeling and living in a destructive manner like mine and has turned it around for themselves and strengthened their M in the process. We have only been S for a few weeks and let me tell you, it's hell but I am keeping my distance and working on myself and those are the only things I can control, as frustrating as that is. Please keep posting your progress, it brings me so much hope to read success stories in the making!!