You try not to read her mind, but then try to read it anyway.
Can you see how contradictory that is? Do not read into ANYTHING. You can NOT 'FIX' this.
You keep trying to read things so you can understand things better.
You can NOT and will NOT understand her and even if you did you would realize that she is not happy and wants to experience life without you at the moment. So which ever way you jump its NOT worth spending any time there.
This Divorce might be the best thing for your W, and if it is she will feel guilty.
Because she feels guilty, she will act differently because on one hand she is doing what she wants (divorce) but on the other she is hurting you.
So any hug from her, or a moderately nice comment, will probably just be something to keep the interactions between you both as 'nice/easy' from her point of view.
But you being so desperate to sort this out will read into it and say "she hugged me" it must be positive. In reality this isn't the case. Its just makes life easier for her to keep you 'onside' rather than be nasty and be shouting and arguing all the time.
Its that mindset that you need to be into.
Its a horrible feeling to know that the person you love you want is gone. 90% of this board probably dont recon. But each one of us has been through months of tears and hurt realising that it probably IS the end. There will be very hard times ahead i.e. xmas, and there is nothing you can do to change it.
The challenge is getting you to a place where you are OK with that.
In my situation, we regularly went 5/6 days without speaking. She left in March.. we are in September now, and even though it is much more positive situation that most on here, there is STILL no indication she is coming home or its even near to being sorted. Thats coming up to 6 months. And that I am told is very fast in comparison to most situations.
You know when you have dropped the rope and are improving when you dont look at your phone and think "she hasnt text me in a while" even if its days/weeks since she contacted you.
Obviously with kids that might be slightly different with you but the concept is still the same.
