New to the journey and thank you.

[Kylo]

This whole thing seems to be tearing my dad up more than me. I keep telling him it is a long process, but he keeps hoping I can report signs of reconciliation. He's getting angry and frustrated. It's nice of him but he doesn't need anymore stress to deal with.

I asked the wife if she wanted to see a video review of the car we are considering and she snapped "No! I want to write this speech!" My anger spiked, but at least I kept it to an under my breath "What a bish". Another reminder that I don't have patience to give.

I'm happy that some of my friends seem concerned and offer advice, but none of it meshes with DB. My friend asked me if I was still attracted to her, and I told him that she was the prettiest 40-year old I know. He asks me if I have told her that. Ha! So then their off-base advice just kind of makes you feel more alone. All the time I have spent learning about MLC and BPD traits and literally no one else I know will understand it.