Thank you for your condolences. I cried for her kids, for her husband. She has a 5 year old son and a 7 year old daughter. Her husband loved her more than anything. I found out when she got her terminal diagnosis that her and her husband renewed their vows. She did pass very loved, cherished, and peacefully.
I have pretty much been alone in isolation for the last few days and I am losing my mind a bit. D9 came home last night from her dad's, I was alone all day the day before until I went out to dinner for my aunt's birthday, and then I was alone all day until she came home. Today we got mani Pedi's and grabbed ome pizza for lunch, and her friend invited her over so she's been there and she texted and asked if she could have dinner there too. So I am solo for dinner again! The isolation is rough. I can be alone better when I can go out and do stuff, but I am limited. My grocery shopping trip was more than I could handle.
When I saw my IC last week, she asked me how I felt when my dad and stepmom left. I told her I was very sad. She said she figured I would be. She understands how much I loved having others around and how difficult it is for them to leave. While I have friends, I don't have much family, and my life really is lonely. And when holidays come around, my friends are with their families at home or on vacation. I basically grilled myself my own labor dinner dinner last night and had a beer.
Yes, I am losing my ever loving mind. I am actually looking forward to going back to work. I need adults around! My manager texted me today and told me she hoped I was feeling better and to have a speedy recovery because they need me back. It's nice to be needed, lol. Especially when I was feeling extremely stepped on by one of the newer ones.
Friday night is D9's pep rally. It's also his night, but I am taking D9 and her friend. I figured he would meet us there and take her home. Well, he has a retirement part. Guess who is meeting me. That's right, OWW. It's going to be me and her. Right now I don't feel like I have it in me. I usually hang out with the parents of D9's friend who I am bringing, but I don't think they can get their until later if they are even coming. Now it will be me and OWW. I am pretty sure I am bringing a flask.
Sounds dumb, but every time cheerleading season rolls around, I imagine brining my imaginary boyfriend with me to cheer my daughter on. Another season is here and I get to hang with my ex husbands affair partner!
