25yearsMLC - 10 yrs Later I File D (pt 5)

[25yearsmlc]

I think I need a new thread but Maybell, I understand the question and believe me, I read up on it.

Most disconcerting and the other hideous part was when I wondered what on earth h was thinking when the policy cost HIM nothing...

Then my s31 said "maybe dad wants to kill himself, and punish you first."

I said that was a "geez, that's a pretty dark joke"

and s31 said he "wasn't kidding. Just look at him, he's not well."

I don't think h is self aware enough to know if he's several depressed & he certainly won't seek help for it.

He can keep doing his thing and running from the wreckage and telling himself he's "doing great!"

AND whatever isn't right is "thanks to mean crazy selfish 25 turning the kids against" him and always stopping him from doing what he wanted/should have,

blah blah blah. (I am guessing about this^^ but some of it, is a lot like things he said towards the last year).

I'll always care for h but

I will not assume "he's so crazy/depressed" b/c he does crappy things,

I'll accept that he does crappy things and it no longer matters why.

Hopefully he will do right by the kids someday.

I'm in survival mode, trying to transition to Thrive mode soon


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