Finding my way out of the dark - Part 3

[Holding]

I managed to look through the trash bags of art and crafting supplies W was throwing out. There were several pieces of artwork and notes from our kids that I wanted to keep. Going through the bags and looking at everything made me an emotional mess. It also made me realize that my kids (especially S14) have always preferred me, and my W was always jealous and resentful of me for that.

At one point I was kind of absently ranting at W and crying, and S14 walked in (he had been asleep) and asked who I was talking to and what was wrong. I had to quickly pull myself together.

Something I've been thinking about: Should I tell W that I intend to try to keep the house in the D? It will be so much easier for the kids, even if it's a financial hardship for me. My keeping it also hinges on my ability to get child support payments from W (who makes more than me). If I tell her, it might motivate her to move out, although she said she wasn't planning to move until the house is sold. So do y'all think I should tell her?