Boston Dad Need of Help Part 2

[Teppo]

Acc,

Good to hear from you. I hope you're well.

I've been dealing with a lot of self doubt and depression this week. I'm still GALing, but I'm really missing the company of a woman. It's not just sex, but feeling wanted. I really miss that. It kills me to be outdoors on a beautiful day and see families and couples having fun while I go through this hell. The misery is compounded by the fact that my W is carrying on with her EA, which may or may not have escalated into a PA.

[Teppo]

Since I can't vent at my W, I'm going to do it here. People said this is the place to do it. So here goes:

I hate hearing you wake up in the morning and hearing your shoe heels on the floor after you get dressed for work.

I hate it when you say you're going for a walk when I know full well that you're lying to my face and likely meeting the OM.

I hate it when I see you texting because I feel that you're texting the OM.

I hate it when you text in front of me and our son for the same reason above. The fact that you've texted your paramour in front of our son during his baseball games and at home disgusts me.

I can't believe you're about to break my son's heart and take him partially away from me so you can be "free".

I hate how you are in denial of your EA.

I hate it that you could care less if I died tonight.

I hate it that you haven't expressed a bit of remorse for this whole mess.

I hate that you don't care about how this divorce is affecting me.

I hate it how you're acting like your life is fantastic, while I weep at night worrying where I'm going to live and how I'm going to support our S.

I hate that you've painted me as some sort of monster to your friends in order to justify your actions.

I hate how you conveniently leave out your EA when talking to your friends about the D.

I hate how you have ruined my life.

[Treasur]

Since I can't vent at my W, I'm going to do it here. People said this is the place to do it. So here goes:


I hate it that you could care less if I died tonight. Me too

I hate it that you haven't expressed a bit of remorse for this whole mess. Me too

I hate that you don't care about how this divorce is affecting me. Me too

I hate how you have ruined my life. And the mess you have made of your own. And that you killed the good person I loved, replaced him with a childish monster and after 2 years are still lost in crazy self-destruction.

[Teppo]

Thanks for your input, Treasur. I hope you're doing well.

[Treasur]

I'm fine, Teppo. Just rolling with it

[Teppo]

It's tough, I know.

[Treasur]

Toughest time of my life, Teppo, same for most of us I think. How are you doing?

[Teppo]

Doing as best as I can. Still can't believe I'm going through this.

I've been feeling paralyzed when it comes to making financial plans for the inevitable separation to come. I know I have to qualify for a mortgage for example, but I don't want to think about it. Today I started the process and actually feel good about it. The only time I'm happy is when I'm with my son.

[Teppo]

I got a letter from my W's L asking that the house be put on the market next Monday! We haven't even told our S that W wants a D! My L wrote a letter asking that we tell our S about the D before putting the house on the market. I also need time to figure out my fianances. My W is controlling this whole situation and I feel helpless. Hopefully my L's letter will work.

[LH19]

Teppo,

Do you plan on keeping the house?

You are definitely not helpless! You need to start to take action to get your ducks in a row.