I think you are being hard on yourself or maybe I'm heartless too as I laughed about your x h accident along with you. I think you handled d26 well and expressed how you felt. It seems like you guys have a strong relationship and talk all the time so should be able to get through this too. Maybe she updates you because she is one of those adult children who continue to fantasize about their parents getting back together.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving