I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. That is incredibly sad and difficult. We never know what someone is truly going thru.
I'm with Dawn. I never think you sound miserable. I think you sound human. We all have challenges and I always appreciate your candor.
Sending you a hug.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer