I"m sorry. I think we all go through a stage, or dip in and out, where we are living a paradox. Loving someone but also having to detach emotionally from the same person who is hurting us and causing chaos. It is necessary to survive and protect what matters to us. Part of accepting a current reality, but it is a heart and mind f**k.

Day at a time. Keep your eyes on the prize of being the sane stable parent. You're doing just fine


Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17