We have two birthdays in one week, so it's always a birthday week vs. a one-day event-plus, youngest daughter got her dog on her birthday 8 years ago-so we celebrate the dog's birthday. This year was pretty epic. May have been my best birthday ever.
Have a date with a really handsome guy, an old fling popped up and invited me for a weekend... a hike in the mountains, ate downtown at two awesome restaurants... JUST SO MUCH FUN.
The marathon used to end with exH's bday the first week in Sept. This year, though, was the first year I didn't miss having the marathon of birthdays. Didn't even think much about his--and when I did-there weren't those pangs of sadness.
Felt some sadness after the attention from him, but more because of the reality of how down the sinkhole he is... and, the reality that he's so far out of it... it would take years to catch up. I think part of what makes him coming to appealing is the idea of having help with the girls and life... but, the reality is... even clean, he couldn't be any help for a long time. That's just sad.
Finishing things today with a party with neighbors. Picked up the cake and it's beautiful. I'm going to try to get some work in today, because this week was so distracting.
Haven't heard anything from him in a day or so.
Have a date tomorrow.
Mom is slowly coming to, and I filled her in on all the gossip she missed-she loves gossip--when I told her about Matt--she said:
Mom: "How is he?" Me: "Really Sad." Mom: "Aw. That's too bad... Oh well-f--- him. He's an a-hole. He got in his own way."
Even with a traumatic brain injury, Mom was super clear about Matt!
Hope everyone has a GREAT Labor DAY!!!
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
