My husband filed for divorce

[LAJar]

Since my previous post, I feel like H is now on to being just completely vindictive. I don't know why I do this to myself, other than to continue to rip the proverbial band-aid off, but I looked at his social media page. He had taken a picture of him and his new female out on a "date". Yup, talk about a stab to the heart. I happened to look at it before I went to bed and there went my sleep.

It makes sense now why he's stayed away and is so ready to end everything in divorce. I don't necessarily think he was having a PA before he left. I believe with the new social media pages, there may have been some flirting going on. I think that opened the door to him feeling good about himself, a look into what could be without me. Once he left, it was full steam ahead. He seems to not consider this cheating since he's let me know he wants a divorce. He has been gone less than 2 months and I'm an emotional wreck, so I personally consider this cheating.

I'm sad, make no mistake, but I take some solace in the small petty things. Not that any of this matters, but helps the bruised ego. Does she know he was home less than 2 months ago? I'm sure he told her it's been a long time coming and he was miserable. What type of person would be happy to start a relationship this way? I would run the other way, but that's me.

This is a sad reality to a 14 year relationship. I am still working on things and trying to keep myself occupied. None of it particularly exciting - out for dinner, long phone calls, shopping. I am looking into some trainings for a potential new job opportunity, which I am somewhat excited about. If successful, I think it has the potential to give me more financial freedom once single and open new doors for socializing. Right now I'm a bit limited in that I only have one single girlfriend.

All of this is tough, but I think I needed this confirmation, because prior to this it was all assumptions spinning in my head. Until next time...