Yup, sounds like a date...you know the pros & cons of this or you wouldn't have posted, I guess. It is so understandable that you want to feel those feelings, really it is.
I suppose my question would be how does it help your goals and might it add more drama in the short-term to an already difficult sitch for you and your family?
It does help my goals in the fact that I want to experience more of life and not be some miserable person who spends his time just moping around. As far as drama, really I think, what's going to happen? She is already meeting other people. She says she doesn't want to work on the MR, she tells people we are completely over. Maybe if she finds out I am GALing, then her feelings will change. But I do know those feelings will never change if I just do "More of the same". I am 180ing, and it feels good.
W sent a message at 430 yesterday, and I did not even read it, or respond until 8 hours later. I want her to see that she is having less of an impact on my life.
Obviously, while I want to stay married and work this out, I can't wait around forever. I don't want to become some celibate old man, pining away for his lost love. And W has stated that she doesn't want me to do so. She wants me to be happy and healthy (yet never offers specifics) Maybe if she sees I /am/ becoming that person, then feelings may change.
But I am going to life. I'm not letting life come to me.
Married 9: Together 11 M:37 W:35 S:2 D:7 Bomb dropped 6/3/2017 W moved out 7/1/2017 Separation Filed: 8/1/2017 Modified to Divorce: 8/21/2017 Divorced: 10/5/2017
