Ok, just waded through guardian paperwork. Tick. Dreaded it but feels better now it's done.
Been thinking at the back of my head while doing it about reality and next steps. I am tired of how life has been these last 2 years. This isn't the M I wanted or the H I married. I have survived so I know I can. I am embroiled in a D process with someone who does not treat it as a priority or behave rationally most of the time. He can't be trusted financially or to keep his word about even his own suggestions. That has made the process very expensive and drawn out. I accept that it is as it is. I don't expect H to change but it would be nice if he did!
What do I want right now? I want this season of my life to be over. It would be nice if H could let me go with the same grace I have shown to him. I want peace and to feel happy again.
What do I need? I need a break from MLC and D land so I'm going to do nothing at all for two weeks. Not a thing. I need to focus on a financial plan for the next 6 months and rebuilding my business. And enjoying the beach. How's that sound?
Me: 53 H:38 T:20 M:14 BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression S 1/16 PA 4/16 H filed 1/17
