Yup, sounds like a date...you know the pros & cons of this or you wouldn't have posted, I guess. It is so understandable that you want to feel those feelings, really it is.

I suppose my question would be how does it help your goals and might it add more drama in the short-term to an already difficult sitch for you and your family?

Me: 53 H:38
T:20 M:14
BD ILYB etc 10/15, H diagnosed severe depression
S 1/16
PA 4/16
H filed 1/17