Jmstl's thread-Part 2

[Jmstl]

So, tonight I went out for drinks. I don't think I am ready to date yet, but drinks ended up turning into a date (I guess?) we talked and hung out for 5.5 hours. I felt absolutely alive. I felt wanted. She put her hand on my leg. She touched me. By the end of the night, we ended up kissing. Now, I really enjoyed being kissed, but at the same time, I DO still want to work things out with my wife. So, in a way, I feel kind of like a scumbag. But I think if she has started to see other men, then there is no reason I can't see other women. I am kind of mixed....I will say that I thoroughly enjoyed this woman's company and want to see her again, if I am to be divorced. I tried to put aside the "newness" factor of it and try to see this woman through a more critical lens, and it was mostly positive.

She apologized for passing the friend boundary I had set earlier in the evening. I told her there was no need to apologize, and it was my choice to let the boundary be broken.