Isn't it amazing to look back and tally up the storms we stood through? It reminds you not just of how strong your moral compass is, but how mighty you are as a person. And speaks volumes for how well people love you.
WRT the job hunt... I've hired a career coach. It's not cheap, but it's an investment in myself and my future happiness.
I think you're not too far from me if you want a recommendation (somehow) but I also think you're sufficiently connected to be able to find a good one through your own network.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15