I have a different take on the situation than Sandi, (which I hate!)
It is just a feeling that there are pieces to this story, missing. You allude to changes you want to make in yourself but you are vague about them.
You said early on that you were NOT the man you used to be and you did not like the man you saw in the mirror.
But most of the rest of your posts are negatively targeting your wife, and imply that you have a mean lazy crazy wife whom you would be better off without.
Maybe that is all true.
But there's something you are not proud of in yourself, and that's the only thing you can do anything about.
Make sense?
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